For some reason in the past month alone, I’ve realized that people misunderstand things all the time. Obviously you have your “misunderstandings” or “miscommunication’s”, but I don’t think people understand anything that anyone says really. Think about it, how many times have you said or done something you wish you could’ve said differently, or had a chance to project what you actually mean, instead of what it sounded/looked like. Especially me; I’m that person who tries to be honest, yet sounds bitchy, wants to be with you yet seems like I don’s give a shit. I am literally the definition of “what I meant was” and “I didn’t explain that well”AND the best one “that’s not how I was trying to be”. I don’t know why the world has to work in this way, because the only way you can POSSIBLY know or understand who a person is, or why they act the way they do, is to live their life and be living with their mind. So is there really any way to have great communication? Or is it just because we learn to agree with each other? 

I haven’t stayed out all night since I was 17 and I miss that….I could go for a grilled cheese right about now

rocky horror picture show! anyone else been? 

A new day allows us to be a new us. Does anyone actually try to be someone new each day? It seems a bit silly but maybe you should try it! Kinda weird but you can be very different from the person you were the day before. If it’s true that “the past is the past”, then each day that comes is the future of the past, being the present. Why are we basing ourselves and other on the past if the past really is the past? I’m not saying people change with a snap of the fingers but I just mean what if you decided to just try really hard to change something about you each day? I think people don’t do this because it seems a little psychotic, but I think people would have an overall changed view of each other if people tried this, even if it was just for one day..one new day. 

I’m going to try really hard to open my heart to people and not have walls blocking communication or anything like that 

My friend Chloe invited me to this really great seminar about getting the most out of life and although it was only an introductory one where they explain what kind of full program is offered, I learned so much in the 3 hours that I was there! Like, they gave us a sheet to fill out as we went along: The first part was to write down things that are working and things that aren’t working in your life. In the “working” part I put down job/career and fun. The “not working” section I wrote communication, relationships, and something else but I cant remember..guess it wasn’t that important. So after writing these things down I had to choose one of the things that weren’t working in my life, so I chose relationships. What I mean by relationships isn’t just romantic, I’m talking about all different types. What we did next was write down “who we were being” in this aspect of our life, and also what it felt like being this way. Example..if you are being cold or inattentive towards others, and it makes you feel lonely. Then we had to write down a possible outcome of the future if you kept on this way. I wrote this:

   Who am I being? Short tempered, elusive attitude, unactive (as in sometimes doing nothing about things is the worst)

How does it feel to be this way? Frustrating, lonely, misinterpreted

Possible future? If I keep up what I’m doing or how I react to people, for example writing people off almost instantly after something goes wrong, or giving up on people, I will eventually push people I love away (already done this) and lose people who have value to me. 

The last part of the exercise was to capture the missing things from the aspect of life and turn them into new possibilities. I wrote the things I’m missing/ could have from my relationships are vulnerability, loss of control, saying “its not that bad” WHICH BY THE WAY IS A BAD THING TO SAY IN ANY SITUATION, and lastly hiding my self expression, which is evidently made me lie to myself. So I turned these things into new possibilities which I’m going to work/try hard to incorporate into my relationships: I’m going to be more relaxed, gentle, open and free towards others in order to create better relationships.